This is strange…
Still I am surprised at how suddenly it came to me. The sudden realization makes my soul cry out in thankful voices.
This deep peace of mind & soul is the one thing I would welcome with open arms any day, any time.
How wonderful and graceful it is?
Last year was my darkest, saddest, lowest in my life. I felt like the real me was drifting away, slowly sinking deep down, never coming back.
In the darkest moments of my life I wrestled with myself. I wrestled with God. “Does it ever end? Why?”, I thought to myself.
I had almost given up. Not wanting anything, flowing with the current that is self-pity. I was alone.
Or so I thought…
It was a beautiful day. Sun was shining through the windows. Chill breeze with the smell of spring gently touching my face, I was praying.
In the most unusual way (for me), in the most unexpected way a sudden tingle flowed throughout my body following the realization that God never left me.
I was expecting a change in some circumstances or something big. But I hadn’t realize that He already gave it to me.
All the self judging thoughts, all the hatred, anger, anxiety, sadness was already gone like they never existed.
Instead of darkness, there was a light once again lit in my heart.
A deep peace. Unexplainable joy was upon me.
Oh how wonderful it is!
God only knows how much I needed it. God only knows how many days and nights I have longed for this.
I cannot express enough of how full & abundant it is to be one with self and the One who created me.
There are no words in human language to describe the grace, and peacefulness I feel right now.
It is enough, more than enough.
Lastly, I want to share a parable from the Bible:
The Parable of the Lost Sheep
“If a man has 100 sheep, but one of the sheep is lost, what will he do? He will leave the other 99 sheep on the hill and go look for the lost sheep. Right? And if he finds the lost sheep, he is happier about that one sheep than about the 99 sheep that were never lost. I can assure you, in the same way your Father in heaven does not want any of these little children to be lost.
